2008-10-12 @ 12:01 p.m. // river beaver

i discovered the feeling of fasting about a few yrs back
where it was about giving up sth you take for granted
and realising how much you want it;
so much, you crave for it.
count down the days till your conscience allows you to have it
and when you finally get it,
you realise that this is what God meant for you to feel when Jesus finally rose frm the dead.
and to me, that is what abstaining means.
but it's also the feeling i get when sth's taken away by stupid duty to the nation.

we went for a jaunt arnd sim lim square yst!
hah i saw all the spy cams
they're damn small!
and black
and i bet they could be put just abt anywhere and not be noticed.
sianz.
sucks to be a girl sometimes.. :/
i felt super unsafe wearing a dress,
if not for my psp-toting companion.

mama mia!
the economy is really going down down down down...
but i don't feel anything?
i'm a dumb apathetic teenager

i kinda feel lost regarding my future.
like i've been hearing that whatever recre activities you wanna do,
DO IT IN YOUR 1ST YR!!!!!!!
yeah. like it's gonna get really really busy.
but i still wanna play netball
but i'm not ready to do so next yr..
then will i have the opportunity?
aiyah, but i know i'm getting my priorities right (k, i hope)

sighhh
october 26...
cry :( :(

discordant * harmony